Life is draining me lately. Even though everything appears right on the outside, it just doesn't feel right at all. Lets start with my new job. I've been wanting this job forever and thought it would be a life saver in terms of my happiness. And let me first say I am completely blessed to have this position. But this job is draining me! Not in the way that I am completely stressed out and in over my head, but quite the opposite. I am completely bored and unproductive! Most of the time I am completely bored, and have absolutely nothing to do. Out of my 8 hour work day I average only 2-4 hours where I actually have work to do. The rest of the day I have to make-up work for myself to do by reading, and reading, and reading over again. Do you know how hard it is to read the same thing over again every day for 2 months straight? Its brutal. It's killing me being so bored and unproductive to the point where I just feel like my soul is being sucked out of me.
I also miss traveling so very much. Its been a dream of mine to travel more, and I have been doing more of it. Like when I went to Mexico City this past April. But I just thought it would be more frequent and more extensive since I now have a steady income that allows me to save money. My pinterest is filled with pictures of far away places that I long to see. And yet, its going to be another year before I have the time to actually go where I want. It seriously makes my heart hurt a little. And I have money saved up too. If its not one thing its another.
In my perfect world I would write, sell books, travel around the world, and live with the love of my life.
Theres gotta be more to life!
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