FRESH START

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There is truly nothing like a fresh start. This blog is my fresh start. As I forge deeper and deeper into my 20s, I find myself being tested and pulled in every direction.

I am a planner. For as long as I could remember I have enjoyed making lists and setting goals. I was the type of kid that if you asked me what I wanted to do with my life, I gave you an impressive answer. I like having a dream, breaking down how I am going to reach it, and enjoying each and every accomplishment along the way. But now at the age of 24, I find that I am no longer a planner like I used to be. Making plans just doesn't happen anymore, because lets be honest...it doesn't work. In your 20s, life really happens. You can plan for something all you want, and life throws a curveball at you. Because prior to entering your 20s everything is kind of mapped out for you and your life, and you have a pretty general idea of what you will be doing the following year. But post-college your life is literally the twilight zone. What will happen? No one knows.

It took me a while to get used to this concept, but now I try to embrace it. I went from graduating college, being incredibly broke, living in a city I loved, staying busy, surrounded by friends and activities, in a loving relationship to moving to a city I hated, making good money, having a great job title, not having any friends nearby, and being dumped by the person I thought I was going to marry. Although I am very very blessed to have such an amazing job as a recent graduate in this economy, there are so many things I miss from my old life. I am constantly wishing to have my old life back.

So this is my journey. For once in my life I feel completely alone, and have no idea where I will end up or what I will be doing. I am no longer planning, just doing and seeing what will happen as a result of my actions. Sometimes I wish I could just fast forward through this time and to the point when I am in a steady job, living in a big city surrounded by great friends, in a loving relationship, where things are comfortable and I am happy. But those times will come. This is my journey now, and I am learning to embrace each and every part of it.